Dear Ones Who Listen,
In my first newsletter, I discussed the idea of “going for it” - investing one's resources wholeheartedly in one's dream. So, in my personal and professional vision right now - attracting a world audience through soulful blogs and virtual retreats - I am stepping all the way into the vision and I'm in a prayer that says “if this is in my Highest Good for me and all concerned,” then bring it on!
If it turns out to be that this vision is not in my Highest Good, then I ask my Source, “please show me the steps I need to take to let it go.” I am not trying to MAKE IT HAPPEN – I am allowing the possibility to ground in me and then preparing my offering.
it is part of my “going for it.”
Another part of going for it is hiring someone who is familiar with the virtual retreat model and from his own experience, knows how to attract a Facebook audience. I already discussed more action steps in the August Leading from the Hearts newsletter.
What I learned at the retreat is that all of the barriers, blocks and spells that are in me are part of the journey – not something separate. Even though there are parts of me who think “I can't do it, I'll do it wrong, and maybe I should cash it in right now” - the still small voice inside does not agree with this interpretation. The deepest part of me KNOWS I am being called to make this offering. And even if it doesn't unfold or land or take off – it's mine to do.
So, one part of the letting go is letting go of the younger more wounded parts of me who really just need my attention. The idea isn't to smack them up side the head or try to get rid of them, but rather to say “hey – I know you have doubts, I know you are scared, I know you'd like to put the blankie over your head instead of stepping out into the world AND I LOVE YOU. You get to be part of the plan – you don't get to drive the car, but you do get to ride along.”
The feedback I got from Mark at the retreat was that those thoughts are not going to disappear, I will not complete them. They are what my and 'the' mind does - I'm a thinker as we all are – what I can do, though, is detach from the power of the negative thinking. And, I can love myself while I am in that thinking. I needed the reminder that as long as we are here and as long as we have a body, the mind is active and the ego thrives. The point is, how quickly do I remember the truth? The truth is that I, and each of you, can do it, always do it 'right' in the moment, and in the wisest part of ourselves, enjoy and are fulfilled by the connection that happens when we are of service.
Mark's thought, a thought I remember and forget thousands of times, is to welcome each part of me as part of the divine – to find love even in the darkest hour. The yearning that lives behind the old, spell-like thoughts then takes me home...
What is it you yearn for? What does your sweet, old soul want? If you don't know, just keep asking the question. If you do know, what does “going for it” look like for you. You could ask a lover, friend, colleague or coach to brainstorm what being entirely resourced would look like. In other words, if you had ALL of the support you needed on every level, what would that be like for you?
And, what does “letting go” look like for you. Can you give your whole heart to the vision and take every single step towards its manifestation and still say – whatever is in the Highest Good as if you are letting the breeze carry your fondest dream?
Even if the dream gets broken, the journey of going for it brings its own wisdom and may, in fact, lead you to your next vision.
I'd like to end with some of my favorite words by Jeff Foster...
Perhaps our dreams are there to be broken,
and our plans are there to crumble,
and our tomorrows are there to dissolve into todays,
and perhaps all of this is a giant invitation to wake up
from the dream of separation,
to awaken from the mirage of control,
and embrace wholeheartedly what is present...
Loving myself and you just as we are this very moment,