Nature as a Primary Resource
Banff, British Columbia, Canada
Dear Sweet Readers,
Today was one of those days. You know the kind of day when you don't want to get out of bed, feel bummed, don't even know why. It's the kind of day that began with that old visitor, depression. It's gloomy both outside and
inside in Santa Fe today.
This is Saturday so it's my writing day and I was thinking, “I'm too bummed to write.” Then I thought since I promised to keep this blog “real” and to show up as my authentic self, maybe I could be present with this depression and with you, my reader. I might also consider sharing a resource called “The Internal Board of Directors” that might offer comfort and support to you.
PERSONAL EXAMPLE OF HOW TO USE THE INTERNAL BOARD OF DIRECTORS:
I'm starting with the state I'm in today so that I can give the voice of depression, expression.
“I'm bummed. I really don't want to get up. If my mind were quieter, I might lie here all day with the blankie over my head. It's a day off, so I could do that. I don't really know what's causing this particular depression. I don't really want to analyze it and I don't want to judge myself for being in it either. I'll just lie here awhile and sink into it, let it have me!”
It's time now to ask for guidance from my Internal Board of Directors which is made up of the powerful people, saints and dogs in my life. My board also includes The Great Mystery, The Great Unknown and The Great Spirit. These Holy Ones have oft offered me great wisdom and mercy throughout my life. A definition of Internal Board of Directors would be each of our own greatest resources. It consists of any aspect of the God of your personal understanding, any guides from this life or beyond, references to nature,etc., We are tapping into the sources that give us energy, replenish us and get us back in touch with our sweet old souls.
I take a few breaths in and out of my heart. I breathe in clarity and breathe out confusion. I wait for things to quiet down inside. Then I ask the question “which members of my board would like to offer something this morning on the topic of early morning, unexplained depression?”
The first to show up is Quan Yin, Goddess of Mercy. Quan Yin offers these words:
"Every moment of depression is an opportunity to deepen your self compassion. Self soothing is the key today.”
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO HOLDS THE SPACE FOR EVERY STATE YOU ARE IN, ESSENCE ITSELF!”
CHRIST now enters the space. He says simply “you are my beloved daughter in whom I am well pleased.”
Now I notice that my paternal grandparents have something to contribute. They suggest I light a candle on the mantle where their picture resides. “Sink into a place inside where you KNOW we are here cradling you just as surely as we would be if we still had bodies. Patti, you are the child of our deepest heart.”
Next, Rumi arrives and suggests I use his poem “The Guest House” as a resource today. Specifically the line “This being human is a Guest House, every morning a new arrival.” He tells me it will feed my soul.
The last member of the board to arrive is The Great Unknown. “Let it go,dear one. Just release your grip on it, and it will release its grip on you. Your board will carry it from here.”
I take a few moments to breathe in and out of the heart once again to see if anyone else wants to show up. When things remain quiet inside, it's time to go on with my day.
My inner perspective has shifted away from “today is a bummer” towards “this depression is a doorway to know and love myself more deeply.”
If you wanted to create your own Internal Board of Directors, you would go inside into the quiet and ask the question, “Who would like to be on my board?” You might ask the question “Who or what are my greatest resources?” You might keep asking over the next few days. Your board may be composed of one or two sources or it may be a crowd. The important part is that your board should resonate with your deepest self. You can also change your board members at will.
My wish is that this writing be of service to you, sweet readers.
THANK YOU FOR WITNESSING MY EARLY MORNING JOURNEY,